July 2015 Hello,
back again because staying away is too hard,
The truth is I love to sit here and do this. As much as I want the input because I want
readers I can still sit here alone because I love this, writing that is. It is so good to get the words out. I have a somewhat contradictory nature in
that I appear extrovert but I am so not that way at all. Inside I am so timid, so shy and so sure I
will say the wrong thing. Don’t get me
wrong I understand socializing but I am someone who is quite insecure. What keeps me going is that I am secure in my
insecurity. I am what I am, well except
that is when I am writing. I don’t care
if someone tells me I need to do this or that because I am willing to listen
but I can also stand up for myself in this arena. I want to be good or more
precisely I want to be a good writer. I
truly love the freedom the written brings and even my fears don’t stop me
writing, I don’t care about them when I sit down, I just care that I want to be
good. This brings me to the topic of the
day. What is good?
Now this is a very interesting concept to consider. I
won’t say controversial even if opinions differ because I want to discuss a
more human look at the notion of good. For
instance as an English teacher I could probably rattle off some classics and
certainly one of my all time favourites is Wuthering Heights, and like so many
of our classics there are very good reasons why they are held in high
esteem. However I am going to go a
little left field here because of my history I guess the last few years. The reasons don’t matter but this time for me
was one of survival and it was a very lonely time. People closest to you don’t always want to
see what is really going on and I didn’t help by keeping it so close to my chest. I didn’t want to be seen as failing and each
day was harder. I had to force myself to find ways to deal. I needed it to be
an intellectual challenge so that I could look outside my thoughts and my very
narrow world but everything seemed too hard, out of reach and the only way to
continue was to read. It gave me time out. Life does work in mysterious ways, really it
does. I can give you so many examples
but I’d rather hear yours first. Sorry,
had to sneak that in.
The sadness in my world disappeared with reading,
tomorrow was another day to finish what I was reading but I had things to do
first and I did them. That was a
positive. The position I was placed in however meant money was limited. This wasn’t my fist time with this situation
and so I reminded myself how good I was at finding ways around things and
thanks to my oldest daughter I discovered Kindle and Amazon. It solved a little of the problem but because
I am a very fast reader and I still had the limited funds saga I took a chance
and looked into the world of Indie writers and wow, what a surprise. Affordability, well some of them were cheap,
and variety and to my joy every once in a while as a bonus this new reading
adventure gave me my breath back and I
could take in the air and be here another day with excitement. I decided then
and there to give my loyalty and to join their ranks. You see secretly I have
dreamt of being an author all my life and here was a way I could take control.
No I am not saying I wouldn’t like a normal path into the literary world but
this is one I can take and be in good company and do now.
I need to clarify I have eclectic tastes and still
read widely specifically now as I have just returned to teaching (so ‘books’ are still a big part of life) but I
try to stick to the self-published ladies and gentlemen out there where
possible, actually mostly ladies. Not to
digress but women are amazing at taking risks into new ventures, simply amazing
and I say that as a human being not a woman. If I return to the topic of the day which was
the question about what is good then reading firstly from these authors because
it was cheaper gave me a chance to explore new avenues in the reading world.
Then I discovered they could be my teachers.
That’s right! Every individual
book brought me closer to understanding what is truly good, and how much I wanted
to do that too. I have always dabbled
but I have always been afraid as well. It’s
that contradictory personality. These
people, ordinary people like me took the chance, some made it, some didn’t but
they put themselves out there to try, and be at the mercy of their reader. How incredibly brave!
Hopefully now I have your interest and hope not to
disappoint you as my answer may not be what you are expecting in as far as what
makes it ‘good reading’. This is me
talking and I speak for myself. I believe in reader connection because only
then can you exchange your world for theirs.
Whether it is a melodrama, a paranormal world of vampires and
shape-shifters, sci–fi, poetry, romance historical or contemporary, or whatever
else without that connection it won’t work. These ordinary people often managed
that with such aplomb I was staggered and inspired. I also learned to rethink so many things.
Grammar matters and under the grammar banner we can
probably list a lot of other things as well that come under style but if the
connection is there we can ignore these little irritations. We just can’t go on ignoring them so if the
author keeps writing then they must address the errors, the inconsistencies. Readers forgive lots I know but as a writer I
can’t forgive myself if I don’t make an effort for them. The
trouble is some writers don’t take any notice and just keep doing it their way
and this was another learning curve for me. What did I want to do, be like?
These questions went around and around in my head for
a long time and I found myself on a see saw.
One day I was never going to be a writer and the next day I would be
scribbling (well you can’t scribble on a computer but it is such a lovely
word.) My refuge was trying to tell me
something but what. I started writing
reviews on Amazon and not just reading them.
I thought maybe somehow putting into words the good and the bad could
make things clearer. After all I was noticing so much and I was also getting
caught quite often with over promising in the blurbs and having books completely
under deliver that just thinking about it wasn’t right. I had to take action. A writer needs to know praise and the other,
you know the word I mean, I certainly do.
Now I review every book I read.
Do I do a good job? I don’t know? Am I gentle? Sometimes. Can I face the same? Yes.
I could go on now forever with different things but
the truth is that it is really quite simply.
An author needs to care about what they do and who they do it for. It makes us better. Reading makes us all better no matter our
ambitions. So all this time that I was escaping I was learning and my learning
has led to my wanting to take a chance.
I have a contemporary romance waiting to go up online. I am so close now but I thought getting the
blog started first would be of benefit.
I want my readers (presumptuous I know) to have a forum to talk to
me. I have so many ideas for things
including the series which will come from the first book when it finally gets
out there. I want it to be a good experience
for me and anyone out there willing to take a chance on me. I don’t think I have a classic but I am
hoping to give someone an escape.